"What can I Do?"

"Little Boy" is a movie that tells the story of a 7-year old boy that is willing to do whatever it takes to bring his dad home from World War II alive. 

First of all, I just love this little boy! He is so full of life and love for his father. The two of them have the perfect relationship. It is one that is filled with epic daily adventures that produce an inseparable bond of love. The movie takes us on a journey that shows the many seasons of life. Some are filled with smiles and laughter while others are filled with heartbreak and tears. In this movie, a painful season of the ‘promised suffering’barges in uninvited and unwelcomed—the little boy’s dad is called to war and taken far away home. The heartbreak and tears provoke the little boy's heart to ask some really hard questions. The first one is the hardest one to of all … What can I do?

I chose this movie trailer because it highlights a lesson I’m learning this season. The lesson is filled with many questions. How does God see me and what am I to do?This is a familiar question that is once again going after my need to perform and to be self-sufficient. I like to please others. I usually do this by doing the things ‘they’think I should do. This process begins with picking up responsibility that isn't mine, butbegs for me to come up with a plan and solution. I was made aware of this pattern earlier this year when I was faced with a problem I couldn't solve. The fruit that came from trying to figure it out was anxiety and weariness. I was exhausted with not being able to figure it out! I remember asking, “Jesus, what can I do?” The same question came to mind after watching this movie clip. What in the world could this seven-year-oldboy do to bring his father back home from World War II? He's just a little boy—a child with no resources.

Well, not from God's point of view. He has inside of him a resource that is more powerful than anything here on earth. He doesn't know it yet, but God is about to show him a power hidden deep within his heart. The power comes from his will to believe. He's only required to say "yes" to the one looking for His chosen one. You see the boy doesn't try to be God. He doesn't try to figure things out or take up responsibly that isn't his. He is asked one question, "Do you believe?" and his response opens the door for God to work. God just wants him to be willing to believe. When He says yes, God shows up in His full power and starts to move the mountains of unbelief. 

Recently, God began showing me that I was missing out on some much-needed grace. I wasn't aware of it but I was doing a lot of things on my own. He shined some light on my faulty belief system. The belief was "I'm sure I know how God's going to handle this because I've seen Him do this before." I won't bother Him. I'll just get the job done. This mindset was wearing me down and overloading my calendar. I remember one night feeling so overwhelmed by the heavy yoke I had around my neck. I cried out to God and said, “I can't do this anymore!” I remember hearing very clearly, "Julie, I never asked to you to do my job." He began to show me that my job was to be human and to do human things, which would actually let Him be God and do God things. I was neglecting the small human things He was asking me to do because they didn't seem important—or to be God like things. He showed me that doing the small human things actually opens the door so He can do the big God things. He didn’t want me to come up with a plan to figure everything out. He just wanted me to come to Him with every circumstance, no matter how small,and give it Him. He wanted me to come as a student in every circumstance with a teachable heart. His truth revealed my deepest fear, "I didn't have all the answers." This fear has driven me most of my life. It has treated me like a slave, whipping me until the job was done. It has kept me from many adventures because I was afraid of looking stupid. God only wants me to ask for help and believe in Him for the plan and outcome. He keeps telling me, “Julie, you be human and do human-like things so I can be your Savior and do God-like things.” This new way of thinking exposed a question that I was always asking myself… What can I do?

I would compare myself to others who seemed more equipped to do the job. The inadequacy I felt drove me straight to ‘figure it out mode.’ Fear would fill me and take my focus off the One who was more than capable of equipping me. I never thought about asking Jesus what He was asking me to do. Now, I see that He only wants me to offer my willingness to believe… To say "yes" and trust that He will provide the plan and the outcome. I needed to begin to believe Him for more than my salvation at the end of my story. Believing that Jesus is victorious in the end is good but I needed to start believing Him to be victorious in midst of my story.

One of my favorite stories in the bible is when Jesus raises Lazarus from the dead. I know this may sound strange but it's not because He raise Lazarus from the dead. I've often thought, “Poor Lazarus had to come back to earth from Heaven!” What I like most about the story is how Jesus saved His most powerful miracle for His close friends, Martha and Mary. When Martha met with Jesus she expressed her belief in seeing her brother again in heaven. She believed this because this is all she knew to believe in up to this point.

"Martha said, ‘Master, if you’d been here,my brother wouldn’t have died. Even now, I know that whatever you ask God he will give you.’

Jesus said, ‘Your brother will be raised up.’

Martha replied, ‘I know that he will be raised up in the resurrection at the end of time.’

Jesus said, ‘You don’t have to wait for the End. I am, right now, Resurrection and Life. The one who believes in me, even though he or she dies, will live. And everyone who lives believing in me does not ultimately die at all. Do you believe this?’” (John 11:21-26).

Do you see Him ask Martha the question that is about to give her a new understanding of who He can be for her NOW in the midst of her story? He is inviting her to a deeper faith by asking her one question, "Do you believe?" I'm sure she struggled because her plan didn't line up with His plan. He saidthat her brother would rise again. She agreed, believing it would be at the end of her story. Then He asks Martha to believe Him for His plan and His outcome. Her reply...

“Yes, Master. All along I have believed that you are the Messiah, 

the Son of God who comes into the world”(John 11:27).

She says "yes" and this is how He responds...

Jesus looked her in the eye. 

“Didn’t I tell you that if you believed, you would see the glory of God?”(John 11:40).

Her "yes" positioned her to see God's glory at one of its finest moments! He blew her mind when she expressed her willingness to let go of her plans and say "yes" to His.

Again, I'm blown away with what He has given me to share with you. I just love Jesus! I love His heart for us and how He wants to take the pressure off of us. He wants us to give Him the heavy things so we can sit back to see His amazing glory!

While We Wait-We receive the gift.. the One who saves

"Love Came Down"
-Brian and Jen Johnson

Today's Focus- Mary and Joseph 

&

The mess they found themselves in

"Mary has her angelic visitation to hear of the Incarnation weeks ago. Joseph gets only the stinging betrayal of her swelling abdomen. He gets one painfully awkward conversation. He gets to lie awake at night wondering what a nice guy like him is doing in a mess like this. No unassuming angel shows up for him until he's already made up his mind and heart to mercifully let her go. There is always that- we are not spared of all trials, but we are always spared of the trials that have no gifts."

- Ann Voskamp

The words above are so true..

We are not spared of all trials, but we are ALWAYS spared of the trial that have no gifts. 

As I reflect on today and what it means for me and my family.. I am reminded of the trial.. but I also see the gifts it has given me and my family. 

I couldn't help but notice that our tragedy happened so close to Jesus' birthday. 

It's a day I, we, will never forget.. 

It's the hardest day I, we have ever lived..

It's a day no one planned for .. 

It was simply an unfortunate series of events that began with love

With no intentions of ending the way it did..

I guess that is what you call a tragedy 

The definition of tragedy- a fatal and mournful event; any event in which human lives are lost, more particularly by unauthorized violence.

Yes, I would say our tragedy was unauthorized. It was a night filled with expectations.. 

expectations of joy.. excitement to receive. Children dreaming of sugar plum fairies.. singing Christmas carols, drinking hot chocolate and falling asleep underneath the Christmas tree ..waiting for their wildest dreams to come true.

and then

the unexpected

the unauthorized

enemy crossed over 

he invaded 

He tried to

steal from the innocent

he used innocent intentions 

to rob Majestic expectations

Let's notice this all comes 

at the same time something else is coming

"Now, Joseph, the angel said, "you get the job of naming the Baby Boy. Don't name Him any of the names in all the branching, reaching family tree- not Abraham or Isaac or Jacob or Boa or David- because this baby is God and man. You will name Him Jesus, because it means 'the Lord saves'.

Jesus

a gift given to us from Heaven above

and the gift is named

The Lord Saves

Think about it.. the very night our hearts were torn apart.. is the same night God is sending a gift.. one that will save us from the the unauthorized tragedy sent by the enemy. 

The enemy wanted to use this to tear apart our family..

but the gift that came with it

was

It only made us stronger

because we embraced the weakness that came with it. 

It only made us love harder

because His love shined brightest through our shattered hearts.

It only made us humble

 So we could carry the weight of  His Glory 

I must admit.. I didn't see this in the beginning..

I just saw the tragedy

I didn't see the gifts that were to come.

Today,
year 10
(the number 10 signifies God's divine order, completion, new beginnings!)

I see

I see all the gifts, thus far:)

I see that God's plan can never be thwarted. 

His plan of redemption and restoration is in motion and nothing can stop it. 

What He has allowed me to see

(only by His grace)

is that His plan to save is always there for us

our job..

we must see it 

take His hand

hold on tight

and ride that bull 

'till

the trial turns into the gift

the victory 

My victory today.. is my family is all together. We all took different paths to get here.. but we all rode the same bull .. and we all hung on .. I can't believe it.. but it's true.. my gift is Jesus saved.. He is saving and will keep saving until we get back home where we will get to see sweet little Jack again. 

Christmas.. 

It's a gift

one that you can not buy

you can only receive.

It's a filling

an expectancy
that we will meet with Him in the midst
encounter Him in the fog

that we will be saved from the attack

We will be restored to better than before
And we will be given new and whole hearts

&

WE WILL OVERCOME

any tragic event that comes to us

We overcome evil with good.. 

So when the enemy tries to convince you that evil will win

look at him fearlessly

eye to eye 

and say

No, you have just messed with the wrong girl!

I will not back down

I've been given a gift of grace that will withstand your fury

and it's no match to 

My Father's 

Love:)

"Every Christmas tree is shadowed by the Cross Tree: it's at the Tree that God does heart transplants- He takes your heart and does surgery. Christianity doesn't make narrow-minded claims. It makes a different kind of diagnosis. It's about offering a different kind of medicine. In the care of our own souls, Christianity isn't so much about exclusiveness but effectiveness."

-Ann Voskamp

Effectiveness is the word here to notice. 

Christianity is effective.

It changes all bad to good

if we give it to Him.

He heals

He gives life

He restores

He's effective..not elusive or exclusive

If you don't believe this..

I'ts because your agreeing.. siding with the one who slips in his epic question

the question that has never changed
is He really for you

does He notice you

does He care

Those questions confuse

steal and rob

they invite elusiveness & exclusiveness 

Jesus isn't about that

He's about effectiveness

life change

healing

Thank you Jesus

for the gift of You

The One Who Came To Save US!!
Thank you!!
I Love You
I am so thankful
You
came down and rescued me:)

While We Wait- We Look For The Little and Small

"Cinderella"

Today's Focus: 

Lifting Up The Little And The Small

The little and the small..

 The most important ingredients for a larger than life miracle

Little and Small is how we feel when evil tries to win. 

But 

What if we saw

Little and Small 

Differently?

What if , when we feel 

Little and Small 

we begin to see 

Little and Small

in a whole new way

we begin to believe

we

the Little and Small 

are the main ingredients needed

to help Jesus create larger than life miracles.

Advent- We are waiting.. And He is coming. 

"It's coming- the Kingdom's coming in little and small unexpected ways. And the King is coming to rule the earth and make all the sad things untrue and make all the bad things come undone." 

- Ann Voskamp

When I read what Ann said about sad things and bad things..My heart skipped a beat. It gives me hope to know that is what Jesus does.. 

He overcomes evil with good.

& 

the process begins 

with the Small and Little 

"The Son is sent in through the fallen kingdom's back door. the King is born into a barn to wrest the forces from the pit, slay the demons, crush the head of the evil one, and woo the world back to life. The war is bloody. It is heinously dark. And on Calvary, evil corners the Son. Iron spikes the King to a tree and laughs haunting triumph- Only to have light shatter the dark and the King fling off the rotting grave clothes and rise!"

Ann Voskamp

He comes in Little and Small.. 

Little and Small at first seems so insignificant.. you can miss it.. but what we learn from Jesus is that Little and Small can't be stopped from overcoming the disguise of Big that evil wears. 

We overcome evil with the little steps we make in the direction of  His goodness. 

"Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good"

-Romans 12:21

Evil will attempt to make us feel like the cinderella's of this world. It will do everything in its power to make you give up on finding kindness. Evil can not give or receive kindness.. It only kills it..

We only find kindness from within..We find it in our hearts.. Jesus is the only one who can give us and fill us with true authentic kindness.. the kind that doesn't expect anything back when it gives. 

Cinderella's father needed help.. he needed someones kindness to step into the place where kindness was missing. His wife, Cinderella's mother was kindness..and taught kindness. She planted the seeds of kindness into her daughter's heart and it called out her identity.  She was royalty and was destined to marry a king.

 Her mother knew that..

Her stepmother did too.. 

and did everything in her power to stop it and manipulate it for her own good. 

Kindness gives and calls out our identity and moves us into our Kingdom destiny.

Evil takes and strips away identity and keeps us from ever seeing our destiny.

"If there is kindness, there is goodness & where there is goodness there is magic."

-Cinderella's Mom

Her mother was teaching her the Little and Small ways that would protect her from the assault.. that would reveal her identity and lead her to her destiny. She was destined to go to the ball re-dressed in His righteousness... Where all eyes would be on her .. Because She would be a reflector of His Glory.. She was destined to marry a prince and be the daughter of a King. Her Stepmother guided by evil..knew who Cinderella was.. who she was to become.. and she did everything in her power to snuff out the Little & Small seeds of kindness her mother planted deep within her heart. 

"The story of your life is the story of the long and brutal assault on your heart 
by the one who knows what you could be and fear's it." 

- John Eldredge 

Kindness can be lost when evil looks bigger..

 but we must not see it that way..

"Have Courage & Be Kind"

-Cinderella's Mom

Evil is a bully.. 

but when we take hold of the courage within.. 

the kind of courage that is built from sitting quietly in the Small and Little places 

at the feet of Jesus 

We find a kindness that builds a courage so strong

that no evil can ever overcome

Jesus has a plan of good for your life.. It can not be thwarted. 

Cinderella's story is bullied by evil. 

but look.. 

Kindness is sent in from above.. 

It comes in and builds courage.

that leads her back to kindness 

so she is able to see 

Goodness again. 

This is the same plan Jesus has for us

He sends in His kindness

so we can see His 

Goodness

that helps us 

Overcome 

the evil of this world.

"All the paths of the LORD are lovingkindness and truth" 

Psalm 25:10

So, Lets be on the look out today for the Little and Small things ..

the kindness He is sending our way 

It might just be right under our nose 

 the courage and kindness 

we are looking for..

The larger than life miracle

we are hoping for 

begins within

with

the little and the small:)

Remain confident of His promise to see His good in what looks like it will always be bad.  

"I remain confident of this: I will see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living."

-Psalm 27:13

I love the song..
"Timshel"
by
Mumford and Sons

The meaning of the word
Timshel—

Man's Ability to Choose Between Good and Evil

Noteworthy Lyrics-

"Death will steal your innocence
but it will not steal your substance"

"And you have your choices

And these are what make man great

His ladder to the stars

But you are not alone in this

And you are not alone in this

As brothers we will stand and we'll hold your hand

Hold your hand"

While We Wait-We Become Lovers Of The Light

"Lover Of The Light"

Mumford and Son's

Today's Focus: The Light

The Light of Christmas

"Christmas can only be found. Christmas cannot be bought. Christmas cannot be created. Christmas cannot be made by hand, lit up, set out, dreamed up. Christmas can only be found."- Ann Voskamp

In the darkest moments of life

there is always 

Light

there is always 

Hope

"The Light never comes how you expect it.  It doesn't matter how dark the dark is; a light can still dawn. It doesn't matter if the world whispers, "There's not a hint that help will come from elsewhere," telling us that nothing will ever improve, get better, change. God favors the darkest places so you can see His light the brightest."- Ann Voskamp

As I thought about today's focus I was reminded of the dark. 

My dark

and how in that dark I saw 

His Light 

Bright

Of course I came across another Mumford and Son's song that so beautifully portrays my journey. 

The video tells the story of a blind man who literally leaves his disability at the door, ditching his cane and wandering out into the wide world. And though he’s sightless, he bravely dashes through a forest, sprints toward the edge of a cliff and lives his life unencumbered, for the first time. The veil is lifted. Sight is given. The blind man can now see. This is a spiritual metaphor for us all. We are blinded by condition of our hearts. When Jesus heals our hearts we begin to see how life can be lived the way He promises. Abundantly and Joyfully, even when the grief comes.

The beginning of the video shows this man waking up.. The expression on his face as He awakes reminded me of the condition of my heart as I would awake from another night slept during my heavy grief.. I was always shocked that my eyes would open up again to experience another hell on earth day. We said it was like the Movie ground hog day.. returning each day .. with out welcome.. 

Each day it returned I would intentionally take a step towards Jesus. 

Not always wanting to..

but willing myself to..

I hated the journey at first.. I was not a lover of the light.. It hurt my swollen tear filled eyes. I remember the only thing I could think of before I would go to sleep at night was.. "Blink, Julie.. If you don't the tears will stay inside your eyes.. and your eyes will be so swollen tomorrow that you wont be able to get a cup of coffee in the morning without putting on your sunglasses." This is one of the deep profound truths I learned as I journeyed through grief.  Another truth was qualifying a day by.. "Can I handle mascara today?" Shallow.. but that's where I was:)

I began to love the journey when I became a "Lover of the Light". 

The video above begins by showing a Stag and a Oak tree standing side by side.. The stag represents Christ and the Oak Tree represents what you become when you follow the Stag. 

Isaiah 61 tells us that He came and still comes to comfort all who mourn.. To bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes.. Give them oil of joy instead of mourning.. a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair.. This is what He does when we become lovers of the light.. When we follow Him through the wilderness.. He replants us in wide open spaces and calls us Oaks planted by Him to display His goodness.. 

"They will be called oaks of righteousness,

a planting of the Lord

for the display of his splendor."

Isaiah 61:3

The video also shows the progression of following.. learning to love the light..Cooped up in our house of grief.. we rise each day and sit down at the table of God.. Here we learn His heart.. He builds a strong foundation.. Then one day He asks us to come out.. Be Brave and Courageous and leave your fear at the door.. Step out and run.. run through the wilderness .. into a place where you will be able to run straight off the cliff of your fear into a place where you can really live. Live with a heart full of His love .. abundantly.. moving from a mindset that thinks,  "I can't do that!" .. to a mindset that thinks, Geronimo! And before you know it your living again.. This is what happens when you become a lover of the light:)

The lyrics to this song.. pretty profound.. worth the read:) 

"Lover Of The Light"

And in the middle of the night
I may watch you go
There'll be no value in the strength
Of walls that I have grown
There'll be no comfort in the shade
Of the shadows thrown
But I'd be yours if you'd be mine

Stretch out my life
And pick the seams out
Take what you like
But close my ears and eyes
Watch me stumble over and over

I had done wrong
You build your tower
But call me home
And I will build a throne
And wash my eyes out never again

But love the one you hold
And I'll be your goal
To have and to hold
A lover of the lights

With skin too tight
And eyes like marbles
You spin me high
So watch me as I glide
Before I tumble homeward, homeward

I know I tried
I was not stable
And flawed by pride
I miss my sanguine eyes
So hold my hands up - breathe in and breathe out

So love the one you hold
And I'll be your goal
To have and to hold
A lover of the lights

And in the middle of the night
I may watch you go
There'll be no value in the strength
Of walls that I have grown
There'll be no comfort in the shade
Of the shadows thrown
You may not trust the promises
Of the change I'll show
But I'd be yours if you'd be mine

So love the one you hold
And I'll be your goal
To have and to hold
A lover of the lights

So love the one you hold
And I will be your goal
To have and to hold
A lover of the lights

While We Wait- We Believe Every Little Thing Is Going to Be Alright

"Three Little Birds"

Stephen Marley

Today's Focus:

Naomi & Ruth

&

How They Needed To Know

Every Little Thing Would Be Ok

"There are Advent moments when you'd like nothing more than to order a Christmas miracle. The one you need when it feels like no one really sees you. No one sees how alone you really feel. How overwhelmed by the work and unappreciated by the people. No one sees that you just want someone to cup your face and look into your eyes and say your name from somewhere deep inside, like a calling home, like a belonging - like a holding that has you around all the fragile places and wont leave you."- Ann Voskamp

Sometimes you just want to know

Every thing is going to be alright.

You just want someone to cup your face and say.. I see you ..

 and I will help you until everything is alright:)

You know what I've learned.. 

Jesus see's you and He hears you 

&

He wants to help you 

Until

Every Little thing is gonna be alright

So, dont worry..

I know.. 

we still 

Worry

I ran into a familiar worry this week. It's one that comes and goes.. I've learned many things from this worry. In the past the worry has been heavier.. this week it was a worry but not as heavy as before. As I began to worry.. I thought to myself... why am I worrying? I've made it through this one before. And you know... Every little thing was alright. Some how God made a way before and I'm sure He's going to make a way this time too.. I faced the fear.. prayed and laid it down.. gave it to Jesus..

 We are to give our worries to Him..

"Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you."

1Peter 5:7

He cares for you:) He really does. He wants you to experience His care while you grow believing Him in the little things like having a little faith.. He does not require much.. 

the muchness of a mustard seed..

Have you ever put one mustard see in your hand? 

Go do it ..

 its really small and thats all the faith we need to start. 

I know..It's hard when we don't see the way...When we don't see Him and we don't see how.  But, if we can look back and see how He's made a way for us or someone one else ..we can know that He's going to do it again. 

Never in the same way

but He always makes things work together for good.

So, with blind faith

believe for good.

This exercise is what helps us learn to see in the dark..

We grow in these moments

When we believe He can do it..again.

"Naomi- she is bitter. Orpah leaves to start all over. And Ruth goes on believing she will find a new home. Maybe sometimes the miracles begin by growing not in bitterness but in faithfulness.

The radicals, the Ruth's- they are the ones on the road, in the fields, on the wall, pointing to the dawn of the new Kingdom coming, pointing to the light that breaks through all things broken, pointing to redemption always rising and the Advent coming."-Ann Voskamp

"Brilliant people don't deny the dark; 

they are the ones who never stop looking for His light in everything."- Ann Voskamp

I love that quote.. It gives me hope.. All I need to do to be brilliant is keep looking for the light. 

That is what Ruth does .. she keeps looking for the light... and you know where she finds it.. in the little things. and at the end of the little things.. every thing is alright. Ruth finds a field in the midst of their storm that provides a little food.. and a little notice from the land owner who just so happens to be the only one who can buy back what they lost. Looking for the little light she found a redeemer for her and her family. 

It's the little things that add up to big miracles. 

Like the little baby

who 

came to this earth 

fragile & defenseless 

in the dark of night 

with one mission

one miracle

to pay for the one thing we could never pay for on our own

our tab with the enemy

He, that little thing

that little baby

saved us all:)

So, just know today... if there are a lot of little things.. big things worrying you.. look for the light.. and He will some how, some way make every little thing work out. I don't know How.. but somehow He does:) 

Again, Mumford and Son's Nail this Journal Entry..

"The Ghosts that we knew"

"So give me hope in the darkness that I will see the light

'Cause oh that gave me such a fright

But I will hold as long as you like

Just promise me we'll be alright."

While We Wait..We learn to believe

"How Can It Be"
Lauren Diagle

Today's Focus: 

Rahab

A Woman Whose Reputation Preceded Her 

&

Was Noted as A Hero of Faith

"Rahab has had a line waiting out her back door. Men lined up at her inn, wanting a place to lie down- and a piece of her. In a town with no Sabbaths, no lines of God's Word ever read, no prophets with a message of a coming visitation from heaven, she's one woman alone with the grime of too many nights on her hands, the weight of too many wounds on her heart- a woman who looks up in her godless mess and sees the tenderness of God. In a place of faithlessness and doubtfulness and godlessness, God gives God." Ann Voskamp

Rahab was a woman with a reputation.

The world gave her a red scarlet letter to wear over her heart
&
Shamed Her

but Jesus gave her His scarlet thread of grace and wrapped it around her heart
&
Rescued Her:)

I can relate to Rahab.. She was only doing what she knew to do to get by. She thought this was life.. and how you lived it. She was not living.. She was merely surviving.. and doing what it took to do so..

That's what life does if we live it without Jesus

it takes

God saw Rahab. He saw her heart. Her heart was good... because He gave Her that very heart. The one that so desperately wanted to give itself.. selflessly.. just like the giver. He programmed her heart to be like that.. like His.. to give.. and the world took and took and took..

To the world her heart looked dead

But 

God saw a ripe heart 

ready to be filled. 

&
He waits
&
She turns

"God, who can reveal Himself wherever, whenever, to whomever; the God who is never limited by lack or restricted to the expected; the God who is no respecter of persons but the relentless rescuer of prodigals; the God who gives the gift of faith in the places you'd most doubt. That is always the secret to the abundant life; to believe that God is where you doubt He can be." -Ann Voskamp

I met God in a place of desperateness.. in a place I needed Him.. in a place I hadn't prepared to meet Him.. I hadn't been preparing to meet Him.. The point I'm trying to make is its not what we've done that makes us ready or acceptable to Him..

It's what we do

we turn

we believe

These are the "do's" He's looking for

When He looked at Rahab.. He saw the beautiful heart He created.. He saw her as the perfect creation He made her to be.. the one who couldn't see  her true self was her.. He wanted to open her eyes to see what He saw..so her heart that wanted to give like His would be transformed to do so..

To give Holy Love

&

Holy Grace

Just like we wait on Him .. He also waits so patiently for us. We live without Him.. because we don't know what living with Him is like.. The world lures us into believing we should be independent.. do it all on our own. Yet if that is how we live.. we usually only do what we know.. what others have done before us. We follow others who are not following a loving Jesus.. We follow others who have been disappointed by Jesus.. who think Jesus is not for them.. or for their good.. and we find ourselves disappointed too.. surviving .. not living.. 

However.. that doesn't bother Jesus

all He's looking for is a heart

willing to turn

willing to believe

willing to trust

and for most of us

we find this kind of heart

when the world has nothing left to offer our broken hearts

He's always waiting

He's always offering

Himself
His Grace

"Rahab, in a godless place with a godless past, believes fully- and so lives fully. She steps out not in competence.. but faith. She serves not her admires but her adversaries. She saves the greatest gift for  her family- a place of grace.. she risks to live."- Ann Voskamp

Isn't that what we all want? 

to live

Fully and abundantly

so 

We risk

and when we do

we live

we find life

and we save a place of grace for our family.

We all need grace.. and I cant think of anything better to give your family... grace... Jesus.. If we follow Jesus.. they will follow Jesus. They will do what they know to do.. follow grace and be made righteous by believing.. not by striving and doing.. That's what I want more than anything for my girls.. to know that they don't have to make themselves.. God has already done that.. They only need to rest in His grace.. Love will shape their lives.. and move them along the path He has created for them. His story for them is filled with Glory..

Just like Rahb.. the one who believed.. the one who Jesus chose to be in His family tree:)

How Can it be.. 

"You plead my cause

You right my wrongs

You break my chains

You overcome

You gave Your life

To give me mine

You say that I am free

How can it be

How can it be"

While we wait.. Love Changes Our Perspective

"How The Wolves Changed the Rivers of Yellowstone National Park"

Today's Focus:
The Ten Commandments
or 
The Ten Love Rules

Now that's a change in perspective..

 "Thou Shall Not!"

to 

"They Shall Never Again Hurt My Children!"

The ten commandments.. they ruffle our feathers don't they?

Why?

We don't really like rules

At the core of our humanness

We don't like to be told what we cant do

Why is that?

I chose the video clip above to illustrate how a change in perspective can change a whole ecosystem. 

I remember when the wolves were reintroduced to Yellowstone. We were there visiting that summer. I remember thinking how awful .. The wolves will come in and kill everything. 

Sight that is filtered through fear

Steals, Kills & Destroys

All I could see at the time.. was what the wolves would take

not what they might give..

When I came across this video, I remember thinking.. Wow!! It changed my whole perspective.

They came and did kill.. but they also brought life. 

They balanced 

They brought things back to the middle

I have a tendency to be unbalanced.. especially when I read Gods truth through the filter of fear. 

I am learning today to read His word through the filter of His love. 

Sight filtered through His Love

Gives, Protects and Restores

It's true.. My perspective began changing 10 years ago after I needed to see through the filter of His love in a desperate way. I knew Jack went to Heaven.. and I wanted to never again question where I would go when it was my time to go.. 

My journey began

&

My perspective changed from 

Fear

to a all consuming Holy Fire of His 

Love

His word is given to us to protect us from fear. It's a love letter that we get to open every day that teaches us the secret ways of walking through this life. It shows us the upside down ways of life.. they ways that contradict our rational thinking.. We learn to live through our hearts and not just our heads. Transformation and Restoration begins changing our hearts and from there moves and changes our thinking.. and then changes the way we act and react to this world. It's pretty amazing.. 10 years ago I never thought I would be someone so taken by the heart of God.. but I am and that has made all the difference in my life today. I kept my distance from Him because I thought I could never measure up.. keep the rules.. Now I know I will never measure up or keep the rules and that's why He gave us Jesus:) Through His love.. His heart.. He's gives to us life.. He gives us protection from the life takers  and He and restores us to give life to others.. It's true:) 

Ann Voskamp wrote out the Ten Commandments in today's devotional.. These will change your perspective.. At least, I hope they begin to change them.. I believe this is the heart of God:)

"The Ten Commandments are more than God saying, :Here are My rules of law for you"; they are God saying, "Here is my real love for you." So God wrote His love right into the rock, saying to His people, just like a man might tell his bride at their wedding, "Here, I take you to be Mine, and you will be the one I will love more than anything- so have nothing in your life you love more than Me."  " Here, I give you My name- My very name to make you Mine- so please do not say My name without love. 

 "Here, I want nothing more than to spend time with you, holy time just for you and me- so set apart one day every week for you and Me to enjoy each other.

 "Here, I love you, special one- so don't want what others have, because I will give you what you need. 

 So, don't lie, because My forever love for you means you never have to be afraid of telling the truth to me.

 Don't steal form others, because I promise I will always give you what you need. 

So don't murder anyone in anger, because My love for you will always soothe away any anger. "

Now that's a change in perspective

it brings 

Balance

It brings us back to the 

middle

Love always does that

it brings a balance

an understanding to both sides:) 

It helps us do what is most important

Loving Jesus

so we can 

Love others like we love our self.

See here is an example of the upside down strategies of God

Only when we know God's love for us

can we love ourselves

and that's when

We love others with the purest love 

His love:)

"Love Came Down"

Brian Johnson