Thought of the day: Fasting Hopelessness
My hope as a mother
I don't have to be perfect
just simply surrendered
I remember the first time I simply surrendered to Christ.
It was moments after my sweet Jack went home to be with Jesus.
I was not aware at that time what was actually taking place in my heart.
Looking back today, I see so clearly.
Moments after we were told that Jack did not survive I began to pray.
My prayer was, Lord I am tired of wondering where I will go when I die. I want to settle this issue with you once and for all. Lord, I am not sure how this works.
I just want to know from now on that I am yours
and
I am returning to my home in heaven because I want desperately to see my son again.
I was confessing that I was tired of trying to be perfect.
and admitted I needed a savior.
You see what brought about that prayer was the thought I had in church every Sunday before this very moment.
The thought was, I wonder if Jesus remembers me?
I had been baptized at the age of 10 but thought the life I lived from that point on was a huge disappointment to God.
I had made many mistakes in my life and felt like God didn't really like me or even notice me.
I just couldn't measure up.
My only hope was to remind Him each Sunday that I had been baptized as a child so my name should be on the guest list when I reach the pearly gates..right????
I was never settled with my salvation because I somehow thought I had to earn it by being perfect.
Truth is we will never be perfect. That is why we need a savior.
I asked the Lord the other day to show me where He was that night Jack went home to heaven. He showed me a picture of Him with His arms around me holding me. He said, Julie I love you and have always loved you.. It's time you settle that once and for all. You cant earn my love. I love you simply because you are mine.. not because of what you do or what you have done. You have never disappointed me because I am never disappointed. I stand outside of time and know every detail about your life even the ones that disappoint you. Simply surrender to me and I will be the perfecter of your less than perfect life.
My hope is
Christ in me.
I have learned that the most perfect me is me radically pursuing Jesus..
and it looks like this
A mother who stopped trying to be perfect
and
just simply surrendered to the only one who is perfect...
Jesus
Jesus, help us surrender ..
I remember the first time I simply surrendered to Christ.
It was moments after my sweet Jack went home to be with Jesus.
I was not aware at that time what was actually taking place in my heart.
Looking back today, I see so clearly.
Moments after we were told that Jack did not survive I began to pray.
My prayer was, Lord I am tired of wondering where I will go when I die. I want to settle this issue with you once and for all. Lord, I am not sure how this works.
I just want to know from now on that I am yours
and
I am returning to my home in heaven because I want desperately to see my son again.
I was confessing that I was tired of trying to be perfect.
and admitted I needed a savior.
You see what brought about that prayer was the thought I had in church every Sunday before this very moment.
The thought was, I wonder if Jesus remembers me?
I had been baptized at the age of 10 but thought the life I lived from that point on was a huge disappointment to God.
I had made many mistakes in my life and felt like God didn't really like me or even notice me.
I just couldn't measure up.
My only hope was to remind Him each Sunday that I had been baptized as a child so my name should be on the guest list when I reach the pearly gates..right????
I was never settled with my salvation because I somehow thought I had to earn it by being perfect.
Truth is we will never be perfect. That is why we need a savior.
I asked the Lord the other day to show me where He was that night Jack went home to heaven. He showed me a picture of Him with His arms around me holding me. He said, Julie I love you and have always loved you.. It's time you settle that once and for all. You cant earn my love. I love you simply because you are mine.. not because of what you do or what you have done. You have never disappointed me because I am never disappointed. I stand outside of time and know every detail about your life even the ones that disappoint you. Simply surrender to me and I will be the perfecter of your less than perfect life.
My hope is
Christ in me.
I have learned that the most perfect me is me radically pursuing Jesus..
and it looks like this
A mother who stopped trying to be perfect
and
just simply surrendered to the only one who is perfect...
Jesus
Bring back your wonder
Bring back your song
I got it all wrong
I've pushed you down deep in my soul to long
Bring back your song
I got it all wrong
I've pushed you down deep in my soul to long
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